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Sunday, January 3, 2016

Dear Mother In Law and Father In Law.


FIL,
I don't understand what it is that I have done wrong in your eyes. I have never met you FIL offered many times before my first son was born to meet for lunch so we could get to know each other. Am I not good enough for your little boy? Is it because I already had a daughter before I met him? Is it because I fell in love with him so soon after meeting him? 

I heard the call from you FIL demanding my husband come and visit you, there was no invitation. It was an order a demand of our precious time. You demanded him alone. You have e-mailed several times and complained about not knowing me yet you never gave me a chance. I was always "that woman" the "baby momma". I remember that call well I was so upset that you didn't want to meet me, but you wanted my DH to bring my newborn out to meet you after he was born. 

I remember inviting you to come to the hospital and see your grandchild after his birth. You choose not to. You again blamed me for those events. I don't understand why it is not OK for DH to be happy as a stay at home dad. Why can't you be happy he is happy. I will never understand. 



MIL,
I thought we were doing well that first Thanksgiving after DH and I met. I watched you watch him play with my daughter.  I thought we were going to be OK.  With Thanksgiving gone and Christmas around the corner we didn't see each other again until April. In April we knew we were having a little boy and you showered us with blankets and clothes for our new little one. 

Over the next few months you made sure to have a little something for my DD and unborn DS.








All though I do love my children and there will never be a day that love ends; there will come a point when they are no longer my babies. When I will stand beside them as equals. When I will have to let go and watch from afar as they live their own lives. I will always be there for them when they need me for advice and for when they need me to step back and give them their space.

I thank my parents and Aunt for showing me how to be a good adult parent. For allowing me to make my own mistakes, For stepping up and helping not only myself but DH also when we needed them the most. For accepting DH as one of the family and treating him with the same respect you all show me.

Monday, December 7, 2015

We aren't kids, This is OUR life 2015...

Quick BG on our last month( end Jan. Early Feb.)
We recently moved in to our own apartment have been here for just a month. In that time  *We have been sick for 3 weeks head and chest colds and I personally have bronchitis (first time ever). So Yeah there is laundry and general trash and the kids toys just laying about. We are still unpacking and getting organized all while working full time and dealing with sick littles.   Now on to my DH issue.
"general trash" meaning some used tissues and soda cans a fast food bag on the counter maybe a pizza box from lunch. There was food on the floor because "surprise I have 2 small children" and she came over right after lunch. I mean the food had just been finished clean up had not yet started.  
We are LC (low contact) with MIL because she is my BEC. DH invited her over 2/1/15 for a quick visit with our DD for her 4th Birthday. The visit went well in my opinion; with the exception of MIL making a CBF over my pet snake KA. A Ball Python about 2 1/2 to 3 ft long.
So FF to yesterday afternoon MIL called DH and proceeded to chastise DH about the condition of our living room and kitchen. *This woman never left the living room to see the rest of the house.* She told DH that if he wont clean up and take care of our kids and house then he needs to hire someone to do it for him. *ie Merry Maids* Because your kids don't deserve to live that way. She told him I didn't raise you to live like that. 
She then went on to tell him we needed to get rid of KA (snake) because he could get out and kill your kids. *MIL hates snakes and doesn't believe they should be pets she believes they should be killed.*
DH would like your help writing an e-mail to her telling her that he is not a child to be "punished" or "chastised" he is a grown man living and paying his own way. If our living situation bothers her so much then don't come over. Our pet choices are again none of her concern as she is not paying for the upkeep or care for said animals. DH feels disrespected as a father and man of his own home. He doesn't want to let this go with out being addressed as its NOT OK with him. 
He needs your help because my version of the e-mail is Fuck you you want it cleaner you pay for the damn maids... and STFU about MY PET.
If MIL were really offering to pay merry maids to come in and clean I would probably take her up on it because Damn it would be nice not to have to deal with all this shit after being down with bronchitis for the first time ever.  I have never had any thing worse than a cold or 1 day stomach virus.

Our situation has changed dramatically since my previous posts. DH and I are working daily to keep the house clean and picked up. The hardest part is all of our laundry that had had to be rewashed since our move. If she had said something back when our house was not CPS ready or even what I would have considered livable, I could understand it. BUT she didn't and if CPS were to show up in the next few days they would just tell me to get my laundry done. The little bit of trash that she has seen if from lunch that day and some soda cans, tissues, oh and the Chinese food bag from dinner the night before which was on the counter not in the trash.

My own mother actually said the same thing about MIL caring and it coming from a good place; BUT again if that were the case WHY didn't she speak up about the other place? This is what confuses me. My home is not unsanitary I do have boxes in my living room that need to be unpacked my laundry room is my kitchen so yeah there are clothes in there on the floor. lol
OK and Finally to address the snake issue one last time. He is apx 3ft long at the most. His cage is completely secure. His personality is extremely docile, so much so I allow my DD (4) to hold him with close supervision of coarse. When the feel of his skin doesn't make me want to vomit  I wear him around my neck to do my house hold chores and he just chills with me. (pregnancy sucks cause I miss holding him).
DH sent the message Nettie came up with to his mother. Her response was as follows.
* I am just trying to help you. You could go to jail and or the children could be taken away for the conditions they are living in. I deal with this stuff every day (MIL works for the county clerks office at the court house) and would be truly embarrassed to have to process the paperwork on you! If you go to jail for that I will not bond you out. I've told you how this works. If it happens its on you! Oh and BTW, if you go to jail.... the money STOPS.* (the money she is talking about I am guessing is the trust fund DH gets from his dead grandfather.)
DH has not responded to her. He is pissed off and did not want to respond with out a clear head. DH has decided he is done and is putting her in a TO for at the very least a year. 
DH is pissed off that she is still talking down to him. We talked about it some before I posted here and had to explain to him what exactly a TO, ELC, and CO were... I also told him that I won't make that decision for him but I damn sure will enforce it.
Honestly I think she is pissed he stood up to her. I believe she messaged my DH all of that bull shit as a scare tactic, which failed because I have been through the system and dealt with cps before. (as a child not a parent).
 The trust fund thing I think is because when ever we struggled before we always refused her money. I refused to to owe her any thing.  In my county if the cps gets involved they often times bring a cop for their own safety which in turn often causes reports of neglect. I know two personal friends who are what I would call neat freaks that are fighting it now due to a sink load of dirty dishes that's it. Seriously the cps worker hat showed up took close up pics of my friends sink and about an hour later cops showed up to take her children away.
I don't know about all of the stipulations the Trust comes with. There are a few and we do have to provide a budget as to what we spend it on. She couldn't be further from the trust than you all are. Hell she doesn't know how much he gets as far as I know, unless FIL (divorced but friendly) told her what he (FIL) gets.
IDK why she is bringing up CPS. She is the only person to bring up such concerns. CPS does not randomly inspect unless called of coarse. I agree it sounds like a threat and if they show up SHE will not be seeing my children again. EVER, I have informed DH of this fact and also told him that if he wants to continue a relationship with her that is up to him but our children and I are OUT.
So I was at work and had to leave because lo and behold CPS showed. Sweep my floors and pick up my laundry CPS said they will be back in a few hours. 
I NEVER post my bs on FB but this time I did. I am not ashamed. FUCK HER. I'll be back after they do the second walk through.
You call CPS on me... OK Do NOT under any circumstances contact me or attempt to see or have a relationship with my children. We are no longer any of your concern. Thank you for essentially cutting your self off from my family. Contacting my husband to gain access to my children will not help you. WE ARE DONE WITH YOU.
So our walk through was fine. The cps lady said that our house just needed a little sprucing up. She'll be back on Monday to see that our laundry is all done. Then she'll make a few more drop ins because the snake needs a new cage and to make sure we get unpacked and sorted because that was the main concern.
DH is in shut down mode because well FUCK it was his mother. He is at a loss as to how to feel
So I was talking with the father of the kids that were taken because of dirty dishes, and found out it was much worse than just dirty dishes. There was more to the story than what his Ex-Wife was telling.  Fucking up MIL's life. eh she's dead can't fuck up the dead. 

As far as the trust goes it is in the control of a company that DH's dead grandfather highly trusted. DH does need to call them on Monday for tax purposes he might as well talk to them about MIL. We do need to look into wills and living wills considering all the bs.
My fb post had not been commented on except by people who completely support every thing I have said.
MIL did post a meme that states " integrity demands that I do whats right even if its unpleasant and unpopular."
I don't think she believes DH or I will really keep our children away from her. She is sadly mistaken. If she really does escalate someone better pray I don't see her cause the crazy in me would break free. (maybe)
GPR in the state of TN she has no standing.

Jokes on them dh and i would go for my family first as they have always been more supportive
The bitch in me really really wants to respond with it was not a threat and since you seem to have chosen a side you can join her.
And my family just showed up to go do laundry and help DH clean while I die. (sick again)
All he has is what MIL has told him. They are divorced I've never met him he has never met me or our kids... oh and DH has him on an ITO. Sorry for my crappy spelling and grammar on the phone trying not to puke

*UPDATE* My house is spotless! Hee hee hee with the exception of my room. lol still have lots to unpack and I need shelves for that. <3I love love love my aunt and her kid and her crazy military raised roomie. lol DUDE they even swept and mopped the whole place.!  All my laundry is done! CPS eat your heart out.

TO MIL AND FIL FUCK YOU! EAT SHIT! AND IN YOUR FACE!!!

ETA:: Very glad I have a doc appt today because Damn I'm spotting and having sharp searing pains in my back and tummy... Contraction like pains... UGH its too early little boy.

So far I'm dilated to 1 cm at 30 weeks. I am dehydrated and getting a steroid shot. 
Personally I believe its all the stress.
So I just woke up because DH let me sleep forever. I feel a little bad cause I know he has not gotten a good nights sleep in a few days.  I was told to drink more water even if it makes me want to puke. (gag)
CPS was a no show. My bug guy was a no show. but my house looks amazing!
DD (4) decided it would be ok to shake DS's (1) playpen while yelling wake up! She is now taking a late nap lol. Love the little Jerk. 
As far as FB MIL and FIL are deleted from mine but not DH which is ok with me cause I can keep tabs on the ass holes. DH is not a big poster but a big sharer lol. My FB is private lock down.
I need to find a way to stop giving this heifer head space.
UGH!!! April birthdays are coming up and so is Blot's birth. I know THE DEAD BITCH is going to try to do something, or show up. Already preparing to talk to my hospital about DS's birth and not wanting any one to be able to view my child.
On other news GREAT NEWS!
DH is now getting 100% benefits from the VA. On top of what Blessings Deceased Grandfather left him...With that and my paychecks putting our monthly income around 5 to 5.5 thousand a month!! We have a small nest egg started our bills are all paid. We have splurged some (a lot). Spoiled each other and our kids. Helped my family out in ways we could not before. Bought a much needed second car, and living room furniture. We are donating to my favorite christian radio station since I don't do church at the moment.  I feel so blessed.
I am so thankful for every thing we have been blessed with. Only thing left to do is go get married. Which will happen this month if I have any thing to say about it.
Ladies you are amazing and I thank you for ALL of your advice.

We are doing great work was killing me so I took two days off. I work in dispatch telling truck drivers where to go. I truly love my job the weather has made it so that we have had mandatory weekends. I have worked from the 9th of Feb. to the 6th of March with out a day off. I was so exhausted I told my boss point me if you have to but I will not be in this weekend. (granted the 200$ bonus was nice but not nice enough to miss my family again).
I have spent this Sat. sleeping a lot and then watching movies with DH and the kids. now I am wide awake and planning or day tomorrow. Cleaning the kitchen and living room starting a load of laundry and then grocery shopping with the whole family.
Head space man... Ugh Head space. I am getting closer and closer to my due date. I am working on planning out my delivery as n who will be there who will be called and who will watch my other monsters. So far I'm down to DH and my mother in the room. My amazing aunt watching the Monsters, and DH's ex- Stepmother. (explanation FIL and MIL divorced FIL remarried and the divorced again...FIL is a Cheater cheater pumpkin eater...)
I have already told DH and my family that FB is off limits about birth until I say so. No ONE is allowed to post about my little Blot with out my go ahead. The consequences are a 3 month time out for any one who fails to keep this rule. Which would really suck because I see my family at least once or twice every week or every other week.
I guess what my biggest worry is, is that some one will some how tell the dead that I've given birth. She will show up and I will have to deal with her directly post partum. I have no qualms being the HBIC of what I want and telling her to GTFO. DH is completely on my side.

Ugh I'm stressing out right now. My stomach is cramping. The DCS lady is coming sometime tomorrow/today. She showed up on Monday and freaked my DF out with threats of taking my children. AGAIN. And seriously who the fuck does their dishes as soon as they are done eating? This lady is pissing my pregnant hormonal momma bear self off. I want to tear her a new one. I am scheduled to have LO on the 7th. Doesn't look like we are going to make it. I feel either a complete CO or at least a years TO for every time the DCS chick shows up is in order for MIL. My special snowflake zombie unicorn is trying to stay alive... you all know because FAAAAAMILY. GAG!

Trying to calm down it ain't helping.

As far as I am concerned right now bitch is dead to me. I'm just waiting for the crazy to show up. Eta. I'm hurting because I swept the floors. So now I'm angrier. Just waiting for this DCS lady to show up and be gone. This is so incredibly inconvenient. I have things to do and she is holding up my whole day. What makes it worse is that if she doesn't show up my day is wasted. Ugh!

Warrant... no.. My sweet DH did not insist on one the first visit. So now we must open up every time this lady shows up. He didn't know and I won't fault him. This lady purposefully waits for me to be gone before she comes so she can intimidate DH. She knows she doesn't intimidate me. 

This chick waits well after 4 in the afternoon to show up and inspect. Usually after late lunch or dinner. Ugh.


Otherwise I feel better but I'm having contractions that are irregular damn can't spell.

I have not thought about the supervisor but I might do that soon. Maybe. Depends on the appt today. Going to post a sign on our door that says unless you called ahead and got permission to come over go away. Don't knock just go away. Eta. Going to look in to the regs for our county. Good idea wish I thought of it.

Patiently waiting for 430 am on the 7th to get here already... ugh I'm so over being pregnant. It hurts to do anything. My damn lady bits feel swollen and tender. Ahhhh

I'm freaking myself out. The 7th is my induction... 2 days away... I'm over thinking the pain I'm going to be in.

I had an epidural with my last child and it stopped working about half way through. I felt every thing and I do not do well with vaginal pain at all.

I hope so. I think I'm scaring myself. I need to calm down and chill out. I know I can do this.

20 hours until hospital time... ugh I really can't wait.

I'm being induced. I want meds. I'm just a big wimp. 

I had an epi with my DD and it worked great. With DS it started out working but then it stopped. The anesthesiologist pumped 3 needles full of meds in me and nothing worked. 

I felt every thing and freaked out a little after because all I wanted was my baby.

DH and I are on the same page as far as his family goes.. I'm not worried about any one just showing up. His mother has a surgery on the 8th in a different hospital. I don't think she will feel up to barging in. Not to mention DH knows I get final say. He tells me constantly that his presents is optional. lol I tell him no its mandatory! lol

This is round 3 for me 1 amazing medicated DD, 1 amazing start and screaming painfully happy ending DS... ha ha ha and we'll see with this one.

8 more hours...

7 hours... before I have to be at the hospital... watching criminal minds and cleaning while DH catches a nap.

Sitting at hospital. Got my iv pitocin and now waiting for epi....

Feeling AWESOME epi is working Had my sweet boy and he is healthy as an ox! 

Oh my goodness thank God for loratab! My back is the only pain I'm having... it took an hour to get the epi right... kept hitting bone. But was the best delivery ever! No vaginal pain no cramps... I could have kissed the anesthesiologist.


DH is in full agreement of a CO for myself and the kids. He is personally not ready for a full Co for himself, but he has started a TO for his mother and father. 

And I am so posting both of those memes. But I won't tag DH in them... I will vague book because honestly I have CO some of my own family and agree with them...


So how do I explain to DH that I won't let our DS play on a bike I didn't get to give him. That the bike just makes me want to cry over the fact that his mother stole my baby boy's first birthday from me. I need to get rid of it... but I also need DH to understand why I need to get rid of it

As I start this it is 11:43 pm cst. I'm hot icky and just want a shower.

My house is too clean for my liking... it doesn't look lived in except for the clean laundry I have not away yet. 

I have CPS coming to inspect the house tomorrow as well as a doctor appt to determine if I can go back to work. 

I'll post more in a bit looks like I get my shower.

I have told DH just not in so many words. I would rather give it away than sell it. My kids get their first bikes at age 3 when they are more likely to understand how they work. It is my own little tradition that she tried to take from me. DS is 18 mo.

So in other news I'm ok to go back to work on Monday! Yay! It's time! We have already used what little we had in savings on things we didn't realize we really needed, so I need to get back to work and put some money in the bank. 

Any one good with coming up with a budget? I would love to take a look at our spending and do it better. 

Still haven't heard from MIL. I'm just waiting on that one. She did post a your mother never told you pic. Ugh just keeping track. 

DCS lady never showed up today. Ha figured... Oh well my house is clean and now lived in ha ha ha. I could even post pics cause I took them. 

So I really want to put our goals into a realistic.... um can't think of the word... like doable.

We want to save money every month.
Prepare for another house move.
Find a 3 bedroom in our new price range... once we figure out what that is...


In other news I'm feeling a little more confident nursing in public. Wiped it out at the doc today in the full waiting room.

THE CASE IS CLOSED!!! YAHOO!! 

Got all my bills figured out and also figured out where all our $$ went Last month. Hee hee it's all my fault. I'll own it. Fast food. Because DH can't cook and I don't think I cooked all month... oops what ever. Lol 

I am hoping now that I've got all my bills laid out and a plan in place we will have our savings back up in no time. 

Especially with the amount of $$ I am showing we will have left over.



So FIL sent DH a message via email... 
FYI mil denied and still does deny that she called DCS. 

I don't even know where to start, but here goes. Over the last few years, I've watched you distance yourself further and further from your family. Like it or not, there are people who took care of you, made sure you had a roof over your head, and made sure you had a good life. You were given opportunities for an education, taken on nice vacations, had the latest electronic gadgets, and shown love.

For reasons that I cannot understand, I know that I've been vilified by you to other people. That you were mistreated somehow. That you were in such a bad situation that you have PTSD or something. You know in your heart that none of that is true. People who loved you have tried to help you, and you ignore any advice from them. I all but begged you to go see Jim. I told you he wasn't doing well, and you chose to break his heart, even after all he did for you throughout your life. I'm sure you justified it to yourself because he didn't want to meet your girlfriend. What you don't seem to understand, is that she would have just upset him. He didn't know her. You chose to make babies with a woman that you had never even introduced to anyone. He needed to see YOU. He was die-ing .You let her rant to you (I'm sure) about what an ass he was for that, and you took her side, because you won't think for yourself.


Now, you're posting vague threats on Facebook about people threatening your "family". Nobody is, so where is that even coming from? Is it because of child services being contacted? That is not on anyone but y'all. You know that your mother didn't want to have to do that. She felt like she had no choice. The kids are helpless, and since nobody else was ever around, she was OBLIGATED to make a call on their behalf. Now your mom has to live with the fact that you have cut her from your life, just like you did to me.


One day I hope that you realize the pain you and your girlfriend/wife/baby momma has caused your family. Before someone else dies in your family, maybe you should mend some fences. I know if I was in your shoes, I sure would. Just think how you would feel if one of your kids did to you what you have done. 


                                        Sincerely, FIL



So we have not responded to FIL as of yet... This comment was left on the post about 2 divorces... 

If this was directed towards me, just get your facts right. Your beloved step mom decided to screw your dads best friend....so I'm not taking the rap on this. I'm just tired of the beating around the bush on stuff. If you have a question, instead of airing it on Facebook, you should maybe talk to someone for actual facts.


What a dick knuckle. Comment deleted

So the job search has been lengthy and tiring. I have been in to several interviews none panning out. I started with jobs I most wanted and worked my way down. I recently received a job offer from Kroger to work in their fuel center for 7.45 an hour for part time. I have filled out all the required paperwork and am waiting for my orientation phone call. 
While waiting I just received a call about a job doing similar work to that of Ceva ( job I recently quit). I am slightly excited and I spoke with the woman for almost 30 minutes about the job and pay.(double what kroger is offering) for full time. This job would be so much better for us financially considering all of the help we have given my family recently.
We also need this job to get some of DH's medical debt taken care of so that come taxes next year we can move forward with house hunting. DH has been pre approved for enough money to buy a small house. This is exciting as this means we could OWN our first home together.  
I am going to talk to DH seriously about finalizing the marriage stuff, and moving on with DD adoption so that we can also move on with the dependents paperwork for the VA. 
There is so very much going on and I am feeling very overwhelmed. 

I'm gonna say MIL has dropped the rope, but FIL is still being the demanding asshole he always has been. texted DH this morning about 10:30 am cst

FIL:"you need to call your mother. Imagine one of your kids treating you how you treat your parents."
DH has been the black hole. I kinda want to respond because I am feeling bitchy. In the end I am leaving it up to DH to deal with his assholes. 

Hypothetical response:::
FODIAF you confirmed she called DCS your both CO. Hellish Holidays! 
Why? (R&R) for every answer till he quits texting. 

Ugh you all have no idea how I wish I could send them both FOAD messages, but I am trying not to emote for DH or handle his family. 
Speaking of handling family... Comical noms from my thanksgiving. 
I poped my son on the hand and my father put his hands out to comfort him and I Yelled at my Dad "NO! YOU DON'T!" You do not get to comfort him after I punished him! 
I have never laughed so hard in my life! My Dad dropped his hands so quick and instantly looked like a naughty child! oh my goodness, it was so funny.

Lonely

How ... How do I tell them I am lonely ?  I don't Feel needed. I Just Want his attention. I want to feel Loved by him. I want to feel important to him.
I don't feel like he cares about me... I just want to hear him say I love you without my saying it first all the time.
It hurts when I try to talk or hang out with him and he ignores me.
Am I pretty enough for him? Does he think I'm beautiful?
My heart hurts because... I don't think I am...

I don't feel like he is attracted to me any more. 

It is my fault for being lazy, it is my fault I have gotten fat, It is my fault for hiding in my room because I am ashamed. 

I am ashamed of how I look, and I am ashamed of my house keeping. 

What is it that I am worth? 

I love him and our kids so much , but what do I bring to the table?

Does he still want to marry me ? 

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Loving my Job! Loving my family . Loving my Life !!

SO Lets start with the nitty shitty... and Life update starting with...

March 2014~ 

Lets start with DS didn't have any ins for his 2 mo check up because the lady who filed our paperwork screwed up his social. 
DH and I have had a rough go at life for the last three months... 
The pipes busted in our trailer... had to stay with my awesome aunt... moved back home after a week. 
They cut our Food Stamps down to just about nothing... Which really hurt our food supply since that is what we were surviving off of... 

we got our taxes. Paid off our bed, bought a deep freezer, picked out a stove, and loaned my parents some $$ so they could move... 

We moved from one trailer to another... I put in over 60 + applications had 6 interviews and only 1 call back. 
I got a full time job doing data entry. Thought things were going to start looking up and BAM!! every one of our bills were due and we have 0$ to pay any of them...

Our lights are getting turned off Monday the 17... and it is going to take 700$ to get them turned back on... 
Its going to take about 3 full paychecks to pull that off considering I still need to dish out money for gas and food.  I am overwhelmed and stressed out. 


I actually spent 200$ on meats with the fs money we got in Feb, I was making it stretch as much as possible... we really needed the deep freezer to store all the meat and bread that was over flowing from my regular freezer. (they cut my fs from apx:370 to apx:100 which I was not expecting considering I did not have a job at the time.) If I didn't need the deep freezer so badly I would sell it.

We loaned my parents the money to move to help out my brother. (recently released from jail) As soon as they get their taxes back they my parents are paying us back every penny. *(We discussed it for two full weeks before we decided to loan it to them.) (I'll do any thing for my brothers, we always help each other out when we can.)

I have already made all the calls about help that I can... I was told that "We're all broke, we could get you maybe 50$." "Maybe". Our electric company will NOT work with me in any way even if I payed 100$ a week they would still shut off my electric. I've been through this only once before... When I lived with my mom... They will still shut off my electric. 

It is actually cheaper for DH to work his PT weekend job, and me the full time weekday job because child care for our hours is crazy. So this way he gets to stay home with the kids during the week and I get them on the weekends..(at least until they switch my schedule and we have to figure out the new system.)

As for hitting up the food banks and churches I bought the deep freezer to actually keep from having to do that. *(Not that I wouldn't do it if I had to to support my family.)* I was just so pleased to be able to provide for my family with out the assistance. I was looking forward to closing out my FS account, and providing for my family off of my paycheck and then WHAM... Just when every thing was starting to look up and get better this just knocked me on my ass.  

I hope I was able to answer your questions. Sorry for any misspellings it's 2 am and I am just getting up to shower and get dressed for work. 


Mom and Dad finally got their taxes back! We got MOST of what we are owed... I paid up the bills and bought MORE food! We are officially ahead on rent, the stove, the lights! Phone bill is paid and car ins. came out 4/10/2014.
All is going great even though my dear sweet daughter swallowed the metal clasp from the ceiling fan pull cord. had to go to the hospital and have it surgically removed from her esophagus (sp).  She is fine and running around like nothing happened... (NO KNIFE YAY!!) I am just so damn excited to be ahead! In all my life I have never been in a place where all my bills are paid up and on time. It feel so so so good.


Had not thought of it but we are so far ahead that I can save $$ every week towards an emergency fund... or vacation.! lol


Can I just say I LOVE my job. This job is one where I can see myself working long term.
The environment is very relaxed and even if I am working extra hours I don't feel overwhelmed or stressed out about it.
My only concern is DH and his being a SAHD. He is amazing with the kids but is still very new to the roll. I dont have any doubt our children will be taken care of just that he will get overwhelmed and stressed out. :-/
Heard a rumor on the grape vine that our landlords might be selling the property we live on.  Not sure how to take this exactly except that we are packing and saving to move any ways.


So we have not done any saving just yet. BUT we finally have a few wants/needs that will make life comfortable. and with me working a few doubles here and there we are still going to be ahead.
So on to some unpleasant news. I was looking through DH's fb (which he knows I do frequently) and came upon a message where he called me LAZY!. I was so pissed because.....

I started this job 3 days after we moved and was working full time first shift after not working at all for 7-8 months. I was so exhausted! went from working 1st to working 3rds with NO SLEEP.  He was upset because I wasn't helping around the house much... Now I am on second and finally getting into a regular schedule and routine.
And he had the nerve to call me lazy... He has since apologized... But still I'm hurt and my feel bads hurt too... (me whining)

EASTER- with the Inlaws
Got up early went to church with MIL, she made baskets for the kids (ok by me I didn't do it.)  Went to GPIL house to celebrate April birthdays and Easter dinner.

MIL picked up DS and the whole time we were there MIL never put him down. It took me a minute to realise that she didn't even come outside to watch DD hunt for her first eggs. (seriously her very first egg hunt ever and MIL missed it). I didn't say any thing at the time. I should have.
I don't think we will be spending SO much time during the holidays with the inlaws. I don't know if reading so much here has made me biased... (sp)  Or if my MIL really is playing favorites...
Well back to work will type up more later when I have a chance... Sorry this is all over the place tonight.. My brain is muddled.


So some random Llama food. Nothing too filling tho...
My FMIL and I have had the most interesting conversations lately.  I currently work with someone whome she recently worked with... lol I was sort of complaining about my coworker to my MIL and she stopped me to ask my coworkers name... I told her and she literally said WAIT you WORK with "sully"... Apparently my MIL worked with my coworker and stated that my coworker is CRAZY. I can so see where my MIL is right. I have never met someone with such a massive ego!


Feeling the love all around. :-) DF and I are shipping the kids to my aunts house for fir night and most of sat so we can clean Sat. :-) And maybe some extra fun adult activity... lol


My world is falling apart... DF isn't sure he wants to get married. I don't know how to handle the emotions I am feeling.

He is blaming it on his parents being divorced twice.

MOVING ON TO MAY~ 
 DH's dad sent him this e-mail... DH wants your advice ladies and gents... 

From: FIL
Date: February 13, 2014 at 3:31:12 PM CST
To: DH
Subject: Alive?

I'm not sure how our problem started, but both of us need to try to repair our relationship. You said you were going to ask me to come to the hospital, but all that I got was group posting on Facebook. That really doesn't qualify as being asked. Now, you have fathered a child that is several months old, and not only have I never met the child, I have never even met the mother of the child. The last time we talked, you said I was an asshole, but I've never tried to do anything but help you out. If you don't like the advice that I have given you in the past, I can't help that. All I can do is what I believe is right. I don't think I've ever given you bad advice. I also don't believe that I deserve to be completely left out when it comes to my grandchild. Please put forth some effort in trying to resolve our differences. I think this is a very important issue. It's also a matter of right and wrong. It has now been 17 months since I have seen you.



DH and Fil don't talk. Fil always demands that DH come see him. (DH does not go ever)

DH has told Fil that he does not want a relationship with him at all.

DH has tried to extend the olive branch and Fil is always an ass hole so DH decided to quit.

 So we forgot to call or text MIL on Mothers day. She was upset and posted about it on fb...
FIL commented with this gem...
"or Christmas,or father's day,or birthdays,ect.ect"

MIL hmm Didn't really seem to like me much when we first met. But then I had Her first grandson and now I'm great...

When my DD was in the hospital MIL and I talked about FIL (divorced). She made excuses for him... "It's just the way he is."
After I had DS she baby hogged at thanksgiving and Christmas, tried to on Easter ( I baby wore).

I'm not sure where we stand really. At the hospital with DD she told me that every one was weary of me because DH and his Ex had recently broke up and his ex was NUTSO. And then along came me and we fell in love so quickly, and me with a kid already; every one didn't want to get hurt.


Df sent this to his mom...
I would really appreciate if you spend more time with DD. When we over there you spent all your time with DS. If you don't spend time with both the kids then you won't see them at all...


This is what she replied with...
I think I have been more than generous when I didn't have to be. If you don't want me in their lives then that's fine, but don't threaten me using those children as pawns. I'm sorry you feel this way. It is sad to me for you to deny those children the pure joy of growing up with family. Our family has always been close and I can't imagine my life without them. I won't bother you anymore. My heart is breaking.

hell do you respond to that?

 the short sweet and to the point version of background with mother in law is that ever since dear son was born he has been the only one she focuses on Thanksgiving Christmas Easter birthdays
I am using voice to text to make sure I get all of this information in here. I apologize for the run on sentences I will attempt to use some punctuation.

DD is not related biologically to DF. DS is 6 months old. When this all first happened I thought it was because DS was new. I told my fiance let's wait and see what happens let's see if it changes. my son was born in November right before Thanksgiving at Thanksgiving my mother-in-law held him the entire time we were there. hardly paying any attention to my daughter that was the first time.

the second time was at Christmas, now before anyone take this wrong I do understand that she did not have to buy my daughter anything.

this was the first Christmas that we had spent with his family.they honestly did not know us from Adam we spent Thanksgiving with them twice... his grandparents got her this cute little plastic iPod replica. they got my son some cute outfits my fiance got several new outfits... his mother bought my son a $55 bouncy chair his mother bought DF at least 150 worth of clothing and shoes... I got clearance bin scrapbooking items that she pulled apart to make it seem like more.. that I can handle but when my daughter opened up 2 of the Walmart $5 games that you would buy for a birthday party I got upset...

I'm going to post this before I lose it.

 we had not seen them since Christmas nothing was said nothing was done about it. well Easter rolled around and we figured let's give it a go see what happens.. we went to church with them and I were son because it would be easier to keep him calm. at the church mother in law sat next to dear daughter and constantly asked for dear son... I did not give her DS. after church we went over to Papas for lunch and egg hunting. MIL. Sat inside and held DS the entire time we were there. DF AND I went outside and hid the eggs for the kids to hunt. when it was time to hunt the eggs all of the adult and all of the kids except FOR MIL who was holding DS. it frustrated me for her to miss my daughters first egg hunt. she played it off and SAID DS was sleeping. so I let it go. 

this past weekend was Memorial Day we went over to Papa's house for lunch and she held my son the entire time we were there what I told her to put him down and let him crawl on the floor she put him down and went immediately outside. she was outside for maybe 15 20 minutes talking to DF. DD was outside with them I don't know exactly what happened because I wasn't there when she came back inside she went straight for my son and held him until he fell asleep. when it was time to leave I told my daughter to give everyone hugs and kisses bye she did and mother in law gave her a quick peck on the cheek and a sideways one arm hug... when she kissed my son it was all over the face and with and I'll miss you can't wait to see you again soon...

 DF has a response he says more than generous when you didn't have to be I didn't ask you for your money or gifts I asked you to spend time with my daughter the same amount of time you spend with my son I'm not using my children as pawns I'm protecting my daughter from being hurt..... 

I have to say MIL was not really around daughter very much before son was born.. DF and I have agreed to a 6 months time out. which may or may not include my son's first birthday...

DECEMBER ~ 

We are so excited!!!! DH HAS A JOB. WE'RE GETTING MARRIED IN A MONTH.
I HAD THE WORST DAY TODAY.  SHIT GOT REAL BEHIND.  AND YOU ALL ARE TH FIRSTS TO KNOW..... I'M. PRETTY SURE I'M GOING TO SEE MY OBGYN TOMORROW FOR A CONFIRMATION TEST AND APPOINTMENT SET UP.  I M GOING TO NEED PRENATALS, DAMN IT I'M PREGNANT!!

As of Sunday mil is no longer in a time out.  Fil can foadiaf.  Dh is battling depression.
I need new child care.  We both LOVE our jobs. We are ecstatic about having another lil squish!
I will elaborate more.after ive had sleeps

Letting MIL out of TO was an idiot decision. She has STOMPED all over DS's birthday and our plans.

Fil can still FOADIAF.  ITO

Depression not so much, child care was found. I still love my job DH lost his and recently found another one.

Still excited about the new squish.

MIL- Ugh. .

I know my feelings are valid. I just need to know how you would perceive this situation.
To start the day I had a doc appt at 9:30, while at the appt DH texts me and says MIL is coming over tomorrow to give DS gifts for his 1st birthday.
I responded that was not OK. Our house is not company ready. Hell to be completely honest its not cps ready. I have not had the time between work and sleep to clean it to my expectations.
Well I get done with my doc appt. and call MIL from my work phone because our cell phones *JUST* got suspended. (damn me for forgetting that bill.) She answers and I mention that I called her because of the suspended phones I didn't want to leave her hanging... SHE IS AT MY HOUSE!
I am startled to say the least. This is the FIRST time in 2 and 1/2 years she felt the need to come to my home unannounced.
MIL proceeds to tell me that she brought DS his gifts and Balloons. A full day before his actual birthday. While I am not there. I know she can tell I am upset, because she starts saying I didn't bring any cake though. (repeatedly).
I just got off the phone as quickly as possible. I called DH a while later when I was sure she would be gone, and I flipped my shit. so to speak. I told him it was NOT OK for her to just show up with our permission, to bring DS birthday gifts with out asking. I also told him the the "party" lunch I was planning on inviting MIL to was no longer going to happen for her. (I was planning on inviting MIL to lunch on my dime for DS birthday. Cake included.)
Nope not going to happen. I will plan something for my Family who fucking know better than that shit.

DUH in every aspect. He did not clean said mess. I feel she did have her own birthday with DS. I do not plan on inviting her to see his first birthday cake.
DH and I had decided about a week ago that 5 months was good enough we were going to be nice and allow her to be there for DS 1st birthday.
Fuck that, oh and Thanksgiving off the table Christmas not a chance in hell.
I still need to have a heart to heart with DH about everything going on. We will be on the same page before any thing else transpires.
Dh and i still haven't talked. He got a job which trumped me being mad for the time being. We will talk later.

Mil bought my son his first balloons and his first bike. I told Dh how upset I was that they celebrated DS birthday with out me. Dh showed me what she bought then promptly popped the balloons and dismantled the trike.

Im still pissed. I was explaining to a co worker about how we had planned our own traditions. Balloons are for every one not just birthday kid, and.first bikes are given at 3. and another coworker who was standing by listening came off and said you can't call them traditions because you've only had 1 run through and that's how it worked,that doesn't make it a tradition.

I don't really know what I'm expecting from this little post is just a guess an FYI this is what happened. Whats your take on it so far.

DH has said no thanksgiving no Christmas no holidays for a while. Until I can think on this day with out crying or wanting to cry.
I prefer dickkuckle. But yeah he is all faaaaaaamily. And I am all like no that bitch didn't even call first.to ask if it was OK. Trying to decided if i want to take it back.to walmart or stuff it in my closet until further notice.

Even checked her fb to see if she had posted any pictures... none yet. My spelling sucks with this phone. I moss my computer and Internet.
So DH and I have decided to celebrate DS birthday on the 21st posted it on FB. (Since joining bbc I'm not as active on fb as I used to be). Posted this last night.

This afternoon DH get a text from Mil asking to do a.birthday dinner for Ds at a restaurant of our choice. Dh ignored the text to ask my opinion. Mil responded with another text saying. Hello? Dh decided to ignore completely.

She then texted me the same question... I responded with we already have plans.

And left it at that. I'm pissed off that she tried yet again to take away my son's birthday from me.

I believe that a TO is in order just need DH to see it that way.

MIL sent this gem straight to bh land.

I meant no disrespect about DS's birthday . Just wanted the little guy to have a little something special for his birthday that's all.....

Dh wants to deal with her so i have backed off. As long as she doesn't message me she doesn't hear from me. Dh said he knows what she did wasn't OK. He just wants to handle things so as not to lose the rest of his family...

Bg fyi ~ Dh recently lost a grandfather he was close to and nobody on his fathers side told him until 2 months later. He fears losing his uncle and only living grandfather the same way... I have never seen a more broken man than when he found out about Grandpa J.

There is so much more i could post. But im sleepy and it affecting my typing on this phone. Will check back tomorrow at work. ****Etc****ds name


I thought a 5 mo TO was good too. So we ended early so I could invite her to spend DS birthday with us; and she pulled that crap.
I need to talk to DH about getting together with GP and Uncle with out his mom but they do EVERY thing together... Seriously I think that if any one plans something they call every one and invite them all


Lord help me. This  might get a little long.
DH is Ex-Navy. He has PTSD, depression, and anxiety. He does not handle stress well.
We have been struggling like crazy. I’m not even sure where to begin. So I’ll skip it all and get to the chase. We are behind again because of unforeseen events. To the point of being evicted. We have 10 days to vacate the property… With NO money to do so. All of the stress finally got to my wonderful DH and he had a break down while at work and was seriously considering suicide. Thankfully he did not act on said thoughts and looked for help. He then spent 4 days in the “crazy” house getting the treatment and help he so desperately needed.
I don’t really have any friends where I am so that means no one to talk to about all of this. I love him so much and I know he loves us. We are working really really hard towards never letting this happen again.

If you ask questions I will answer them. I just don’t know where to go from here.

DH is doing great! We got evicted. Found out DH is getting $$ every month from his deceased grandfather. I am freaking out about how much stress is no longer on my shoulders...  There is so much more.

Staying with my mom right now BUT we might have found a place!! The money was. Un expected... it is enough for Dh to be the stay at home dad he wants to be. We plan on using it for bills and saving my paycheck... it is a monthly check that will come for the next 20 years.....

Now usually i complain about my mil But not today...she and gmil bought my littles a "ton" of presents knowing dh and i couldn't afford to do. Christmas this year. I am grateful to her. She called to see if we could come to Christmas and i said no because i have to work the day after, she said well we can just move Christmas so you can be there. We are now going on Christmas eve.
Would love to type out every thing but i HATE my phone..... sorry for any drunk spelling... its 330 am and i am sleepy lol.

It is an unexpected gift. MIL and I had a small convo about how much they bought the littles, where she begged me not to be angry lol. 

 I am finally at a computer. lol  Our Christmas was awesome! The littles enjoyed themselves, MIL kept her hands to her self. GMIL was awesome in keeping me company. There were no favorites!
And I would consider doing it again.



So DH and I were in the middle of packing and moving MONTHS before Christmas. My little brother allowed some lady (Mary) I can't stand in the house to use our bathroom. FF to the early weeks of December my Mom starts getting texts from Mary talking about how my house was filthy and nasty and she was surprised DCS had not been called on us... Mom shut it down no big deal... BUT I knew it was coming.
Christmas morning my Mom gets a text from Mary saying Merry Christmas, and I went off. Take your Merry Christmas and shove it. Don't contact my mom again.
She came back with some NASTY TRIGGERY SATAN text. I put her in MR.Number with a repeater text that says SEEK JESUS , and DO NOT contact me again.

She is neither i believe she is a drug head. Her first response was highly religious, then her second contained satanic rituals and triggering things dealing with children. Just gross my mom deleted the texts thank goodness


Quick BG on our last month. We recently moved in to our own apartment have been here for just a month. In that time  *We have been sick for 3 weeks head and chest colds and I personally have bronchitics (first time ever). So Yeah there is laundry and general trash and the kids toys just laying about. We are still unpacking and getting organized all while working full time and dealing with sick littles.   Now on to DH issue.


We are ELC with MIL because she is my BEC. DH invited her over 2/1/15 for a quick visit with our DD for her 4th Birthday. The visit went well in my opinion; with the exception of MIL making a CBF over my pet snake KA.
So FF to yesterday afternoon MIL called DH and proceeded to chastise DH about the condition of our living room and kitchen. *This woman never left the living room to see the rest of the house.* She told DH that if he wont clean up and take care of our kids and house then he needs to hire someone to do it for him. *ie Merry Maids* Because your kids don't deserve to live that way. She told him I didn't raise you to live like that. 
She then went on to tell him we needed to get rid of KA (snake) because he could get out and kill your kids. *MIL hates snakes and doesn't believe they should be pets she believes they should be killed.*
DH would like your help writing an e-mail to her telling her that he is not a child to be "punished" or "chastised" he is a grown man living and paying his own way. If our living situation bothers her so much then don't come over. Our pet choices are again none of her concern as she is not paying for the upkeep or care for said animals. DH feels disrespected as a father and man of his own home. He doesn't want to let this go with out being addressed as its NOT OK with him. 

He needs your help because my version of the e-mail is Fuck you you want it cleaner you pay for the damn maids... and STFU about MY PET. Its a Ball Python about 2 1/2 to 3 ft long.

There are a lot of points and I am going to try to "kill two Birds with one stone".

"general trash" meaning some used tissues and soda cans a fast food bag on the counter maybe a pizza box from lunch. There was food on the floor because "surprise I have 2 small children" and she came over right after lunch. I mean the food had just been finished clean up had not yet started.  
If MIL were really offering to pay merry maids to come in and clean I would probably take her up on it because Damn it would be nice not to have to deal with all this shit after being down with bronchitics for the first time ever.  I have never had any thing worse than a cold or 1 day stomach virus.

Our situation has changed dramatically since my previous posts. DH and I are working daily to keep the house clean and picked up. The hardest part is all of our laundry that had had to be rewashed since our move. If she had said something back when our house was not CPS ready or even what I would have considered livable, I could understand it. BUT she didn't and if CPS were to show up in the next few days they would just tell me to get my laundry done. The little bit of trash that she has seen if from lunch that day and some soda cans, tissues, oh and the Chinese food bag from dinner the night before which was on the counter not in the trash.


Nettie my own mother actually said the same thing about her caring and it coming from a good place; BUT again if that were the case WHY didn't she speak up about the other place? This is what confuses me. My home is not unsanitary I do have boxes in my living room that need to be unpacked my laundry room is my kitchen so yeah there are clothes in there on the floor. lol


OK and Finally to address the snake issue one last time. He is apx 3ft long at the most. His cage is completely secure. His personality is extremely docile, so much so I allow my DD (4) to hold him with close supervision of course. When the feel of his skin docent make me want to vomit  I wear him around my neck to do my house hold chores and he just chills with me. (pregnancy sucks cause I miss holding him).

So an update of sorts.

DH sent this message to his mother.

Mom

Having thought on our conversation the other day, I'd like you to know that it bothers me when you speak to me as if I were a child in need of chastisement.
I am an adult and I really don't have to justify anything to you.
For the sake of our continued relationship, please refrain from ringing and chastising me in the future.  I am happy to discuss anything, but I will not be told off by you or anyone else.

DS


 Her response was as follows.

* I am just trying to help you. You could go to jail and or the children could be taken away for the conditions they are living in. I deal with this stuff every day (MIL works for the county clerks office at the court house) and would be truly embarrassed to have to process the paperwork on you! If you go to jail for that I will not bond you out. I've told you how this works. If it happens its on you! Oh and BTW, if you go to jail.... the money STOPS.* (the money she is talking about I am guessing is the trust fund DH gets from his dead grandfather.)

DH has not responded to her. He is pissed off and did not want to respond with out a clear head. DH has decided he is done and is putting her in a TO for at the very least a year. 



DH is pissed off that she is still talking down to him. We talked about it some before I posted here and had to explain to him what exactly a TO, ELC, and CO were... I also told him that I won't make that decision for him but I damn sure will enforce it.

Honestly I think she is pissed he stood up to her. I believe she messaged my DH all of that bull shit as a scare tactic, which failed because I have been through the system and dealt with cps before. (as a child not a parent).

 The trust fund thing I think is because when ever we struggled before we always refused her money. I refused to to owe her any thing.  In my county if the cps gets involved they often times bring a cop for their own safety which in turn often causes reports of neglect. I know two personal friends who are what I would call neat freaks that are fighting it now due to a sink load of dirty dishes that's it. Seriously the cps worker hat showed up took close up pics of my friends sink and about an hour later cops showed up to take her children away.


I don't know about all of the stipulations the Trust comes with. There are a few and we do have to provide a budget as to what we spend it on. She couldn't be further from the trust than you all are. Hell she doesn't know how much he gets as far as I know, unless FIL (divorced but friendly) told her what he (FIL) gets.
IDK why she is bringing up CPS. She is the only person to bring up such concerns. CPS does not randomly inspect unless called of course. I agree it sounds like a threat and if they show up SHE will not be seeing my children again. EVER, I have informed DH of this fact and also told him that if he wants to continue a relationship with her that is up to him but our children and I are OUT.

So I was at work and had to leave because lo and behold CPS showed. Sweep my floors and pick up my laundry CPS said they will be back in a few hours. 
I NEVER post my bs on FB but this time I did. I am not ashamed. FUCK HER. I'll be back after they do the second walk through.
You call CPS on me... OK Do NOT under any circumstances contact me or attempt to see or have a relationship with my children. We are no longer any of your concern. Thank you for essentially cutting your self off from my family. Contacting my husband to gain access to my children will not help you. WE ARE DONE WITH YOU.


So our walk through was fine. The cps lady said that our house just needed a little sprucing up. She'll be back on Monday to see that our laundry is all done. Then she'll make a few more drop ins because the snake needs a new cage and to make sure we get unpacked and sorted because that was the main concern.
DH is in shut down mode because well FUCK it was his mother. He is at a loss as to how to feel.


So I was talking with the father of the kids that were taken because of dirty dishes, and found out it was much worse than just dirty dishes. There was more to the story than what his Ex-Wife was telling.  Fucking up MIL's life. eh she's dead can't fuck up the dead. 

As far as the trust goes it is in the control of a company that DH's dead grandfather highly trusted. DH does need to call them on Monday for tax purposes he might as well talk to them about MIL. We do need to look into wills and living wills considering all the bs.

My fb post had not been commented on except by people who completely support every thing I have said.
MIL did post a meme that states " integrity demands that I do whats right even if its unpleasant and unpopular."
I don't think she believes DH or I will really keep our children away from her. She is sadly mistaken. If she really does escalate someone better pray I don't see her cause the crazy in me would break free. (maybe)
GPR in the state of TN she has no standing.

http://www.ehow.com/list_6652131_grandparents_-rights-laws-tennessee.html


So I guess FIL saw my FB post. He liked it, and then sent me this text... The response I want to send is not nice. So I am going to BH and vent about it here.





The text I WANT to send but wont.

 Not that it is any of your business how WE parent but for your FYI. DD wasn't wearing panties because we are still potty training and it is easier for her to notice she needs to go.We did not skip out of any county due to the way we live. As for threatening people HA it was not a threat. I refuse to let HER around MY children. She choose this route. You have never seen my house or met me or my children. That's on you. My kids do deserve better, they deserve better family members than you and MIL..

Jokes on them dh and i would go for my family first as they have always been more supportive



The bitch in me really really wants to respond with it was not a threat and since you seem to have chosen a side you can join her. And my family just showed up to go do laundry and help DH clean while I die. (sick again)

All FIL has is what MIL has told him. They are divorced I've never met him he has never met me or our kids... oh and DH has him on an ITO. Sorry for my crappy spelling and grammer on the phone trying not to puke


*UPDATE* My house is spotless! Hee hee hee with the exception of my room. lol still have lots to unpack and I need shelves for that. <3I love love love my aunt and her kid and her crazy military raised roomie. lol DUDE they even swept and mopped the whole place.!  All my laundry is done! CPS eat your heart out.


TO MIL AND FIL FUCK YOU! EAT SHIT! AND IN YOUR FACE!!!


ETA:: Very glad I have a doc appt today because Damn I'm spotting and having sharp searing pains in my back and tummy... Contraction like pains... UGH its too early little boy.

So far I'm dilated to 1 cm at 30 weeks. I am dehydrated and getting a steroid shot.

Personally I believe its all the stress. So I just woke up because DH let me sleep forever. I feel a little bad cause I know he has not gotten a good nights sleep in a few days.  I was told to drink more water even if it makes me want to puke. (gag)

CPS was a no show. My bug guy was a no show. but my house looks amazing!
DD (4) decided it would be OK to shake DS's (1) playpen while yelling wake up! She is now taking a late nap lol. Love the little Jerk.  

As far as FB MIL and FIL are deleted from mine but not DH which is OK with me cause I can keep tabs on the ass holes. DH is not a big poster but a big sharer lol. My FB is private lock down.


I need to find a way to stop giving this heiffer head space.
UGH!!! April birthdays are coming up and so is Blot's birth. I know THE DEAD BITCH is going to try to do something, or show up. Already preparing to talk to my hospital about DS's birth and not wanting any one to be able to view my child.
On other news GREAT NEWS!

DH is now getting 100% benefits from the VA. On top of what Blessings Deceased Grandfather left him...With that and my paychecks putting our monthly income around 5 to 5.5 thousand a month!! We have a small nest egg started our bills are all paid. We have splurged some (a lot). Spoiled each other and our kids. Helped my family out in ways we could not before. Bought a much needed second car, and living room furniture. We are donating to my favorite christian radio station since I don't do church at the moment.  I feel so blessed.

I am so thankful for every thing we have been blessed with. Only thing left to do is go get married. Which will happen this month if I have any thing to say about it.